"You won't remember how it started with us, the things that I know about you that you don't even know about yourself.
We won't come back here."
Kelly Corrigan - Lift (2010)
Dear Ella,
Today you are 7 years old! You have been waiting and wanting your birthday to get here for months. And today, as you celebrate being 7, a part of me mourns just a little bit. My heart catches to think of you another year older, another year closer to growing up, and there's not a darn thing that I can do to slow it down. You've prepared me from Day One though. Your independence has been fierce since the day you were born. One thing that you don't know now but I'm sure I will hold over your head many times down the road: you almost killed me within your first 6 months of life. You never slept (okay, you actually slept about 14 minutes a day). Within the first 6 weeks of you being home I had mastitis, strep throat, a uterine infection and felt like I'd been tortured by the Mafia. I was so rundown and exhausted. Oh, but you were such a beautiful baby those minutes that you did sleep. I could hardly pull my eyes away from you as you slept, to finally get some sleep myself, because you were so peaceful and perfect (and I was probably in shock that you were actually sleeping). You slept propped up in my arms at night for months on end, and Dad and I did try tough love. We tried to let you cry it out but you won, always.
Your sense of adventure started early. You loved to stand on Dad's hand and balance. Nothing frightened you. When we look through your baby book, this is one of your favorite pictures. You love looking at your baby pictures - "why didn't I have any hair?" is a favorite question. I guess because I didn't either and you seem to be looking a lot like me (so I've heard).
You might look a lot like me, but you've definitely got your own personality. You play hard. And you crash hard. You sing, you dance. I call you Crazy Girl at least 5 times a day. You were never a good napper, but sometimes you exhaust even yourself.
You have your own sense of fashion. From the time you were old enough to walk, you've fought me tooth and nail about what you would wear. Sometimes nothing but dresses, sometimes nothing but capri's. Wool tights in August. But it's always YOU. I even ask you what I should wear sometimes...
You have a beautiful spirit. You don't seem to fear hard work if it gets you what you want. It used to scare me because often when you fell down or got hurt, you wouldn't cry. But now I know it was your pride that stopped you from crying. Pride and stubbornness -you've got a lot of that too.
One thing that often amazes me and Dad is your focus and determination when you are working on projects. You can work on art projects or play with your dolls for hours. You really only get bored when you aren't doing what YOU want to be doing.
You are still at the age where you want to sleep with me and Dad some nights. Sometimes it's you AND Silas wanting to sleep with us - that gets a little crowded. As much as I fight to keep you in your own beds, I'm often secretly happy when you win, or find your way into our bed in the middle of the night. When you do, you usually hold my hand as we fall asleep. You snuggle in and again, I find myself fighting my tired eyes so that I can watch you as you sleep, just like when you were a baby.
As much as I want to keep you little, keep you safe, keep you mine...I am also excited to think about the person, the adult, that you will be someday. You will have the world by its tail. You've got a lot of drama and a lot of queen in you but you say you won't be an actress. Maybe not but whatever you decide to do with your life, it's going to have to be big enough for that personality of yours.
(Melissa Jones Photography)
"Remember this. This is what love feels like.
Don't take less."
Don't take less."
(Kelly Corrigan - Lift)
Happy Birthday sweet Miss Boo.
We love you!






