Better Week

This week has been going much better, except for the dumb Ohio weather. Sunday was 81 and beautiful.  Monday it rained a ton and was just dreary and bluck.  I worked from bed and it was actually quite cozy and productive.

And then yesterday it snowed - real snow, not just the little flurries that don't do much.
I have captioned this "The Agony of Defeat" - poor things. They are still all slumped over like they've given up for good.

Silas and I have been butting heads quite a bit for the last couple weeks.  He's been very whiny and quick to lose his temper and I've been lacking patience myself.  He's such a funny kid though.  For example, last week:
Silas: Can I have my vitamin? I've got white bumps on my arm.
Me: White bumps?
Silas: I'm not sure but it could be scurvy...
Me: ???


It's so easy to get lost in and overwhelmed by the millions things that always need to be done. Household stuff, work stuff, friends/family obligations...on and on.  I feel lucky that most often, I have the ability to step back and put things into perspective.  Clean the toilets or spend time outside with Justin and the kids on a (currently rare) sunny day.  I'll go with the latter.  And by the state of my house...I probably make that choice a bit too much!  But oh well...

At least I've got my sanity...right?!?  ??

Fraught

fraught - frôt/ - adjective
1. (of a situation or course of action) filled with or destined to result in (something undesirable).

2. causing or affected by great anxiety or stress.
"there was a fraught silence"
synonyms: anxious, worried, stressed, upset, distraught, overwrought, worked up, antsy, agitated, distressed, distracted, desperate, frantic, panic-stricken, panic-struck, panicky;

I don't know why, but the last week has been very stressful and full of anxiety for me. Making productivity very difficult, and the ability to focus a pure joke.

I don't know which comes first, the chicken (anxiety) or the egg (stress). And they become so intertwined that it doesn't much matter when they get rolling and picking up speed. It reminds me of skiing this winter and watching Silas start down the ski run and get going so fast that all he knew to do was fall, arms and legs flailing in all directions, to stop himself. I've been through this enough times now to know when I'm heading for the crash and burn. When I feel it happening I do try to remember how to slow it down without the need to throw myself to the ground causing a massive pile-up all around me.

More exercise, more yoga, more nature...
Juicing, oils, prayer, meditation...maybe it all helps, maybe not.
Maybe it just keeps me occupied until the moods pass. They always do eventually.

our maple finally started blooming last weekend.

it wasn't a sucky week all around - the CF Wine Opener was Friday

and celebrating Jen's birthday too!

April Fools?

Oh, I hope today's weather wasn't a big tease! I can't remember ever longing for warm, sunny weather like I have this long, long winter!

No soccer practice this evening (Justin is coaching both teams again this season) so the kids got to come home and play outside until dinner and then we walked up to the school for some extra outside time.
Ella, mason and Silas were all playing soccer against the garage again...it looks like someone scored!



Ella roller bladed up to the school. I think i need to get mine out soon and give my knees a break from running.


Found this when looking for my other pictures from today. She is getting way too big...hard to believe that 6th grade in a new school is right around the corner.


I'm ready for yard work and gardening and bike rides and sitting on patios and...no.more.snow!